Where Do I Start?

It's been a while. I'm trying to spend my time more wisely. I don't write enough. Not enough to consider myself a writer.

I'd like to change that.


The past few weeks have been eventful. I'm sure I should start with the end of last year, but instead I want to write about the last 6 weeks, I'll get to that in another post. In my life it feels like if it's not a barren plate, it's an over flowing one; i.e. My plate's full at the moment. It just seems to happen that way. Around December of last year, I decided I wanted to begin working on my documentary film project again; pick back up where I left off and finish it outright. Just as I began collecting myself and reworking the project I came across the opportunity to be a part of a digital marketing apprenticeship. I decided to accept the invite and since have been spending Monday through Thursday nights down at the very tip of Manhattan with a group of people who, like myself, want a career.  It's called Cooperate NYC, Co-op for short. It's meant to teach us a skill and fill in the gaps of a growing job market. It's also meant as a way of creating a community of people, most of us being underemployed and unemployed people of color.

It's pretty nice. I like most, if not all of the people within this new community. I haven't really been a part of something in about two years. Before my film project dissolved, I was pretty well integrated int the NYC comic scene.

How I digress.

In order to finish writing this post, I sat down and scheduled the rest of my night. I became slightly hungry and began foraging for food. then I saw the black eyed peas I wanted to make tonight. Then I saw the dishes, both clean and dirty. Then I saw the beer.

So first I grabbed the beer. Next, I sat down and wrote out what I was going to do tonight. I would write for another 20 minutes. then I would eat something. Word for word I wrote, "Eat something healthy." After, I would sort and wash the beans I'm cooking tonight. And then, I get dressed and meet My boyfriend in the city.

Even further digression.

Like I said, I've been busy. It's been six months now that I've been living with my boyfriend. We're definitely figuring each other out. So far so good. I'm still working the part-time jobs. Still struggling financially. That is why I decided the apprenticeship would be a good idea. I dream of a different life. One with a career. At least a career I can stand more than a few months. Then I can keep moving on to whatever it is that I really want to do. So my film project is suffering now. Boo. Either way, I want to make time for everything, and in order to do that, I have to put the work in and be patient. If I don't, I won't make it big in the successful adult department.

Oh to dream.