So I've decided to start a second blog, because as of late all I've been blogging about is personal affairs and that is far from what the original idea was. Should Bree Speaks be my public blog or should it be my personal one? I'm unsure but I do know this: Never eat raspberries. lol. Better yet, never eat a pound of unwashed cherries from a street vender. I had a rough afternoon after that!
So anyways here goes a personal blog for you cool cats out there. Ever since spotting my Ex's number in my mom's phone, I've been having dreams about him. Strange dreams. I think it's more so longing. I often dream of group events, things that involve many people. And unlike before where he's ignoring my presence and vice versa, Now he is apologizing for his foolishness and declaring how awful a mistake he has made. I'm pretty pathetic. Deep down, I feel like these dreams mean one thing: I want him to say sorry so we can kiss and make up. LOL. I don't think so...First of all I might chop off his nuts if he comes anywhere near me. That's how crazy this 'man' made me through all of his leading on and sweet words. Second of all, he was never one to be sincere...He often apologized to make amends so I'd stop whining. It is without a doubt that I am still very much not over him. I really don't love too often... Only twice so far and both ended with some really bad stuff happening because the guy couldn't keep his penis in his pants.
No one should dream so often about being apologized to. The one thing he didn't really do I want so badly my dreams seem to be telling me....I'll never get it thought. He's 32 years old and still acts like he's 18, straight out of high school...He did nothing wrong in his head. I'm overreacting. I'm crazy. Right...whatever helps you sleep at night...very different from the words he was saying before...very different indeed....*sigh*
(closes eyes)
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(Dear God, Please let me sleep tonight without dreaming of that douche of a little boy in a man's body whom I still hope with all my heart amounts to something soon, but most likely will amount to nothing much like before. Amen.)
